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TM #187 - Which is the more exquisite sensation: revenge, relief, or vindication? - You and Me Against The World
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TM #187 - Which is the more exquisite sensation: revenge, relief, or vindication?

Relief, by a long shot.

I can't begin to talk about how many close calls and near-misses I-- frak, that we all have had to go through since leaving the Twelve Colonies. It's like our entire lives have become nothing but a series of narrow escapes and of blind luck keeping us from being extinct.

The first big sigh of relief came when I finally got back to the Fleet after being on occupied Caprica for all those months. Starbuck had gone on her crazy mission for President Roslin and had picked up a couple of strays, Sharon and me, and got us all back to humanity in a stolen Heavy Raider. Even after Anders and the resistance, it was still a fifty stone weight off of my chest the moment we walked through that airlock and saw human faces again.

Yeah, that relief didn't last long, but I felt it.

And then when Hera was born... Gods, that was beyond relief. I can still remember what it felt like to pound on the outside of that godsdamn cell, watching Sharon shivering and crying under her blanket. I can still remember her hand slipping out from under that blanket, covered in blood. Nobody knew what it was going to be like, delivering a hybrid child, but I don't think even Doc Cottle had been able to predict that.

I was there for the whole thing, holding Sharon's hand, mine getting crushed in her grip. All I could do was stand beside her and try to coach her through the whole thing, promising her that everything would be okay, when I had no idea if it would. When I finally heard Hera cry and watched her move, and when I finally saw that Sharon was alive and sleeping, I was breathing again. I thanked the Gods up and down for sparing them both and letting me be there for them.

There was relief when the Galactica Jumped out of New Caprica atmosphere, knowing that the old gal had actually pulled off the Admiral's insane plan. And you know there was relief when I finally got transferred out of Dogville.

Relief. Definitely as good as it gets.


Capt. Karl "Helo" Agathon
Battlestar Galactica
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number_eight From: number_eight Date: July 26th, 2007 10:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Although I saw your face when the Old Man told us Hera had been alive the whole time, Karl.

Revenge would have been nice, too. Especially after everything we went through.
callsign_helo From: callsign_helo Date: July 26th, 2007 10:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, I can't deny that I thought about it. Same with when President Roslin came to our quarters after... anyway, yeah. It would've been good, maybe.
number_eight From: number_eight Date: July 27th, 2007 10:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
You never told me what she said to you after...
callsign_helo From: callsign_helo Date: July 29th, 2007 06:05 am (UTC) (Link)
She and the Admiral came in after the Marines. Both of them were worried that you might sell us out to the Cylons. The Admiral, he at least seemed to sort of understand, but President Roslin... it was like she forgot Hera being on the base ship wouldn't have happened if she hadn't lied to us.
number_eight From: number_eight Date: July 30th, 2007 09:59 am (UTC) (Link)
I would never sell out anyone to... is that what they thought? That I did it trade information for Hera? God, if it came down to choosing between her and everyone else, though, I'd pick her. Maybe they were right.
callsign_helo From: callsign_helo Date: July 30th, 2007 05:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
They basically told me that I had taken a big gamble, helping you do it, since they didn't trust you as much as I did. I'm glad you didn't have to make that choice. But believe me, I would've chosen the same, especially then.
number_eight From: number_eight Date: July 31st, 2007 08:56 am (UTC) (Link)
Both of them said that? Or just President Roslin? It doesn't make us horrible people though. I think they don't understand the bond we have with each other or with our daughter. Maybe the Old Man does, but... I don't know.
callsign_helo From: callsign_helo Date: July 31st, 2007 06:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
The Admiral was cautious and concerned. But the President, I think she was ready to have me arrested, maybe for treason, at least in that moment. Admiral Adama understands. He's a father.
number_eight From: number_eight Date: July 31st, 2007 11:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's not treason! It's... you only did it because I asked you to do it! I hope you're right.
callsign_helo From: callsign_helo Date: August 1st, 2007 06:40 am (UTC) (Link)
Well, it seemed that she still held me responsible for my actions. I think so. After that year as XO, I really think so.
number_eight From: number_eight Date: August 1st, 2007 06:46 am (UTC) (Link)
Bitch.
callsign_helo From: callsign_helo Date: August 1st, 2007 07:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's done. And these days, she seems about as protective of Hera as you and I do.
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